To the people in my life, I love you all so dearly. You are the ones who have pushed me to do better, to strive for more. We’ve cried together, we’ve laughed together, hell, we can spend hours on the couch and bed just talking. You are the ones who have checked up on me when I was down, the ones who brought me ice cream when I was sad, or the ones who came over just because. You are the ones I can trust with my life.
I’m so blessed and grateful to have you all in my life. You’ve replaced the ones who were fake and selfish. The ones who left without a trace. The ones who didn’t care.
I’ve never been happier.
People are truly funny. They smile and act sweet to your face. They share their thoughts on other people, laugh at how stupid some are. They become your friend, someone you trust. But they’ll turn around so quickly you don’t even realize who you were friends with.
I’m so hesitant to accept anyone in my life now. I’ve met some wonderful people, but still I wonder how some could be so toxic.
We are not friends. Drop the act.
I remember dreaming of you. Your deep brown eyes, your rugged hair, your rough skin. You said to me, “Wait. I’ll come for you. Sooner or later.” And I woke up with my heart beating fast, my skin all sweaty. But truly, you did not mean those words for me. I don’t think you ever will. You can jump the moon for her. You can cross the farthest sea for her. But for me? You can barely lift a finger.
Often times, I wondered why you shared your deepest thoughts with me. You shared your hopes, your worries, your plans for the future. Yet with her, you kept things light. Truthfully to this day, I still sometimes wonder of our conversations that went into the mornings and what they even meant. What did they even amount to? What was I to you? Closure’s a funny thing. And it’s usually something most of us go without during heartbreaks and break ups.
But somewhere in my heart, I know we’re not meant to be. But somewhere in my mind, I wonder what could have been.
I guess that’s what they mean when they say a dream’s just a dream.
— (via sleepy-se7en)